Random dreams

UUyyy i love my recip...what ever ^^, im so happy, now i gotta get to work so i can give a lovely gift in time <3, this was a great idea, wow, long time no see huh?, school can be a bitch ^^¿, well thats all, see ya! ^^

ok, now my obssessions (sss) are kinda overlaping (kinda remembers me of one family guy ep) my brother downloaded SWKOTOR2 (as in star wars- knights of the old republic 2: the sith lords) and im geting obsessed about it , i  mean being a big fan of its predecesor (¿?)  this is a really great game (this far, and Atton is cutter than cart anyway XD) yea, the other is that Resident Evil Degeneration is coming october 18!! less than a month, aw i love claire ^*^, and lets see if leon is a little less stupid this time XD, i love you just the way you are!, and of course stargate, im starting a new video (i know i havent finish the other one -_-¿) and its getting much better that it was in my head! cool! ^^ so thats pretty much all, im taking sleeping pills now, and right now im getting sleepy so im going to bed...ZZzzzz |o

*a little spoiler for jonas ahead*

Dam!, i know i've just uploaded another journal, but i had to post this ><, i was watching "prophecy" the 21 episode of season 6, and you know i've become very fond of jonas (thats the reason to my new av made by stef, it was the only one i could found in her gallery and im not about search "jonas quin" in photobucket and get spoiled)  the thing is that i just kow that the guy disappears and daniel comes back but i dont really know when or what happends (and you dont need to tell me ¬¬ thanks) so in the beggining (after the "prevoiusly in stargate SG-1" when they talk about jonas in the weird nirty machine) my brother told me "aaa of course, i remember is prophecy" and i said "does jonas dies here?" and he said " yes -o-" and i felt my heart when "ak---" What! i was just kiding and he was so sure, omg! the thing is that i went all the damn episode thinking the guy was dying!,  and i was so sad! i even though of a video, with the song "24" by jem, its the first time i just know what song to use in a fraction of a second, well,  when he was in surgery my brother was saying "he's just about to die, he's just about to die >->" and i was really angst T_T, and then when he appears in the bed i felt so happy, and so mad at the same time, i just said "im so gonna kick your ass" and he run  ><, man he made me suffer so much T_T, and when he went to bed told me "hey, so now your sure jonas doesn't dies?" .......Damn!! >< well im gonna do the video anyway >o< when i finish the vala/daniel video ^^¿ and of course the best joke about the episode writen by chris judge "the changeling" when "T" awakes and goes to the batroom fallowed by jonas my brother said "is this an episode about teal'cs fantasys?" you know, if you give that wiked spin to the situation, XD, and then hw imagined chris writing the episode "and the i make out again with the girl, can i have her naked.-dont push it ¬¬" "and then jonas walks in without shirt." and corin nemek will go <_<¿¿" i was just kiding man.- <_< oookey" XD that was great, oh and of course micheal shanks is on ^^, you know it would be nice to have jonas back in one movie, though my brother says daniel and him cant be in the same reality for a very long time >_>

And just to warn you again, i dont wanna know what happends to jonas, if you tell me, i will hate you for the rest of your life ¬¬

No matter what far away place in the galaxy you're in, you'll always find a coulpe of horrible teachers in your school
The fact that pretty girls will always have the worst suitors

You know, i entered my third semester of highschool and i have a teacher, my spanish teacher, who doesn't do anything but criticize my beliefs and pretty much everything i stad for, but like she's the teacher i cant say anything to her, i already had a problem with a matt teacher, he failed me....well i had, like 8 in all my exams and still i was resistered to repeat the course, so....dont wanna get involve in that crap again, in the other news, i dont have a boyfriend, i've never had one, and i've never had good suitors, or whatever you call them, i am pretty, i know that, part of being modest is to accept your defects, but the other is to accept your qualitys, the fact is that i see beautiful girls with horrible guys in the streets, its so sad, they take them to bed with the "i love you" propaganda and when they get preagnant trow them away, there's not a lot of handsome guys in guadalajara, there's a lot of pretty girls though, so the pretty guys end up believing they are gods -_-¿, anyhow, school is driving me crazy, i haven't been able to do anything, and im so tired x_x, i cant even open vegas now T_T, so unfair, i hope i settle in soon, see ya

just posting this out of the... whatever is im feeling right now, you know my borthers are my most valuable possesion in this life, they are my life, my best friends, the ones that truly understand me, but they also have so much power in me, and when we fight i get so bad, i get mad and sad, frustrated that in this ocasions they cannot understand me, and they can be so cruel sometimes, and like everytime we fight i cry he thinks im just playing victim, yea like that would win me anything, i just hate fighting, with anyone, read my responses to bad comments in my you tube video, im not made to fight, i always lose, well right now he thinks im being selfish because i stay until 3 am in the computer and make noise (sometimes i laught) and he says i know im being selfish and simply dont want to do anything, im not selfish, im a good person, i like helping people and i dont like to see anyone, specially my brothers, hurt, i need to dont sleep much so if i go to bed at 12:00 i'd be 3 hours tring to sleep and dying of fear, i have this thing, like fear to the night and solitude, i need to see that theres other parts on the world where they are not sleep, when they still live, i hate sleeping, i feel as people died for a momment, i need the company of the computer, i have a thing in my head that causes that in the night, its not a feeling or a belief is chemestry, but he said that im only using it as an excuse, the worst part of fighting my bros is that they always in a way are right what they say get to my heart, i cannot analyse it, its just right, so now i feel like a selfish very scared and lonely bitch, i just hope i goes away soon

 
Soo  today my sister kinda dragged my brother and i to the mall, you know, i really dont like to go shopping, i know in earth culture its suppoused that all girls like to go shopping, but im a geek remember, and this time we didnt have any money so she said we were going only to see, now i think thats depresing -_-, i dont actually like the "fashion sense" in mexico, anyway, my brother went with only one thing in mind, buying the 5th season of sg-1, he's more of a stargate RDA fan, bit i was goofing and i saw this O-O dam, i even considered to steal it XD, now as you cannot see in the pict ^^¿, it says "importacion" wich means its more expensive than the national version, 35 dollars, the national one is 16, but i think they dont have it yet "el arca de la verdad" sounds funny ^^ anyhow, i'll be waiting for:
a) my dad buying it for my on internet
b) the national version to arrive
c) my brother buying it, XD he said he wouldn't buy it for 350 pesos T_T

and i want the 10 season too, anyhow, after a lot of boredom and a visit to the favourite store of daniel jackson and now mine *-*, they have this beautiful egiptian thingies, anubis (i mean the dog) bastet oh and this pretty vessels like the ones on that episode "the curse" and i was like "are there goa'ulds in there?!" and my bros " no -_-¿" that part was fun, but the best was when we get home and did this marathon (i hope it means the same in english) of SG-1, we watch 7 episodes i think, and my favs already are threshold, chris judge makes an impresive work here, and rite of passage it was so cute to watch Dr. Fraiser as a mom <3, and beast of burden was i little overwhelming, the conflict that can be in intergalactic relations, dam daniel wanted to help T_T and he looks so pretty, its so sad that hes going to die -_-, anyhow, like im all filled with stargate, im going to work on my video and belive me i'll finish it tomorrow,  i only need a good ending, and look at my new avatar ^^, i couldn't resist XD, i really liked cha'ka, and im gonna lear the unas lenguge keka!!

now, before you start trowing stones at me, read the story, im making my video, buuut i need this very common, so common i dont know where to look, so im reseeing all episodes i have (so all those whit vala on them and camelot)  maaan is taking so long because i really want to finish it, not that i dont like to watch them again but i want to make my video ><, so i every time i think i foud the adecuate scene it doesnt fit or the chroma keyer doesnt work on it, yes everytime a scene fails i blame the character (XP yep im far gone), vala's been a good girl but daniel's just >< dam it, i've had a lot of problems finding daniels scenes, the problem is he doesnt shut up, and i have a....like a rule in my videos, i cant put people talking, it doesnt seem well to me, unless they are suposed to be sining the song or somehting like that, didnt i told you i was wonko? so, yep im taking tooo long in doing this video, but normally i take a month or so, anywho, daniel is not a princess but he cant obey my orders!! dam it dany, aaa thats why i love to make videos, i get to scream a lot to people that doesnt get mad at me, so dont worry im in "we're crashing into the unknown" and i dont care to say next on the list are fix you by coldplay and the roxane tango from moulin rouge i have really good ideas for them ^^, well see ya! i think i have the one, again

Hey, it's been one week, well my book "Shell Game" has arrived *^^* its so awsome, and so funny, oh claudia black is just great! <3, oh and today i watched "divide and conquer" from Sg-1 and im actually starting to like Carter (you know because i didnt like her before) well in atlantis wasn't all that cool, she was out of her element, i still want weir back!! anyway, back to the episode, i almost cry, now i understand sam/jack fans, but im still not one of them XP, but carter can be so sweet when she wants to, i also just finish watching "the Seed" remember i dont have sci-fi channel so i watched in you tube before they erase it, and...it was...fine, not as cool as the other seasons, but i really like keller so even if i dont like this new sheppard, mckay is getting bored and ronnon is...i dont know, i still like teyla and more with her baby she looks so cute <3, though i dont think they can fix SGA -_-, lets see if they make more SG-1 movies, talking about that my video is going sooooo slow, the first two days i got like 36 seconds and know i have like 2 per day, i have the vegas open all day and just go to it ocasionally but i get distract with other stuff like right now >_>, if you've heard the song im in the second "im felling right" i need daniel to smile ¬¬, in season ten thats hard to find -_-, luckily i have found it, but now i have to go to sleep because i have music lessons tomorrow ^^¿, i hope that tomorrow i can work more on it, though im playing ocarina of time too, such a great game and i see a SG-1 episode per day with my brother (he's totally an O'neil fan XP) so, yea, probably it'll take a while sorry, but i have a lot of videos in mind and they're completed in my head already ^^, well lets see what destiny has for me, other than a very boring vacations, i want a new house T_T, i want to have a window!! T_T, seeya! ^^

Again im not sure about the tittle being correct, im in home the whole day and i dont live in a very populated town, lets say i dont have neighbors -_-, theres no window in my room and the its been cloudy for over a week, you know theres some vitamine/proteine thing that the sun provides, and i really need it, i get depressed with too much darkness, and i dont mind one cloudy day, but its affecting me real bad, so i havent seen anything but my cloudy house and my family, its starting to feel like one of those times when the character of a sci-fi series are captured and the starts to see that they havent seen anything but one place and that everything is the same everyday and then they discover they are being held prisoners by some alien group or something, ("this mortal coil" pops to my mind) but nop -_-, today i saw more part of the worl, but it didnt really helped,  im still feeling a little weird, so im still working in my video, if vegas wouldn't freeze and crash so many times maybe i'd be finish by now ¬¬, im working really hard though ^^, if you wish to see the preview is here 
http://mx.youtube.com/watch?v=b-urOLMHV4A
the song is first time by life house, i have tons of ideas for new videos (including one of mitchel <3) but i have to finish this one first or it'll turn in to a bloody mess, i need a new avatar >->, but im afraid to open photoshop while i have vegas opened, HEY! im getting Shell game really soon, as you probably know, im from mexico and i had to buy it via internet, not fair, and today i went to a cd/dvd store and they had sg-1 seasons 1 to 5 in 44 dollars, 9 and 10 to 70 $%!"= dollars (wich means 695 pesos) in internet you could buy it at 32, thats so...><, unfair! so i have to pass trough my dad to buy something via internet, and i dont have a credit card ¬¬, aaaa -o- oh well, eventually i'll get a job...right?

Dont really know if thats how vocation spells >_>, anyway i just finished watching stargate continuum, dont worry i wont spoil you, just a lot of rambling like things >_>,  i can't say im dissapointed but cant say that im satisfied, lets say it doesn't have a lot of anything, well a lot of quetesh maybe,

or mitchell, but not lot of vala (less than 5 mins) and further more it doesn't have a bit of daniel/vala its a lot of OMG, OMG!!...oh ok, i mean the resolution wasnt that cool ^^¿ and as the SG-1 grand finale, its definitely....blah, its a great movie thogh, a little weird, but very shocking like ^^¿ there wasn't a lot of daniel's historic babble 

a little more of carter's technobabble, then again im not such a big fan of carter ^^¿, and there wasn't anything of energyzer bunny ass kiked mitchel! thats something i love about cam, oh and teal'c was ok, though the ark of truth had more things i liked, more of everything, anyway, that was enough ramble there ^^¿ the images arent such a big spoiler are they?, in other news im buying the michael shanks/claudia black audio book shell game *^*, my dad allowed me ^^,  and the movie was marvellous when we talk about the visuals *o*, everything was pretty and Claudia Black looked soooo gorgeous


Sooo ending with that part of the journal, now i'll talk about something that came to me today, im gonna be a sci-fi actress thats what im gonna be even of the earth breaks! its the only thing that moves me in this moment, so i'll do my best, i'll search for a school and make something useful of my vacations, by this time i do feel a little x_x, im having sort of a paranoid moment thing, and im just really scared of nothing, i hate that, i hope that tomorrow everything can feel better, though right now when i think in the future it makes me feel so much afraid, i have to focus in my sci-fi actress dreams from now, and the worst part is that everytime i experience an ending i come to this strange depression -_-, hate it, anywho, i shall go back to my video see ya, oh and just because i feel like it here is me ^^



in a gothic photoshoot from past saturday, i feel like adria!! <3

woo, so im starting out here just did this because i wanted to distract my head from the idea that SG-1 its over and that all good things come to an end, i really have a problem with that universe rule, the frustraiting part is that i dont really like the first 8 seasons of it, just the last two, because of Vala and mitchel and that's not related with farscape, i'll find really strange to watch them in another characters ^^¿, sooo, im in vacations, i dont have anything better to do with my time, its 3:14 in the morning and i dont wanna go to sleep -_-, nor do anything to do with SG, the principal reason i join here was to know more vala/daniel fans and hopefully make more friends that help me overcome this ending trauma, so, thats all for today, im gonna read some fanfics now, or something -_-, stupid unstable mind, hey im from mexico, so if you dont understand what the crap im saying thats the why